I am rated completely P& T for the last yr. I also work at a distillery now. I just feel like something happens to be missing in my life. There is a lot of tension with the mate. I feel like I need to discover something that gives me purpose. We tried telling the spouse this and she got actually mad because her plus my son don’t produce enough purpose. I just think that there is an empty spot We can’t fill and the work doesn’t help. Really dont really know what to do anymore.